Homecoming

allow me to exfoliate my feelings towards the homecoming dance: I hate it. With a fiery passion within my soul. Its not that I hate it because I don't like dancing, but the reverse, I hate it because I LOVE dancing, and am frankly disgusted by "grinding," which is all that takes place at our dances now. However, I really like dancing with friends and whoever I might have a crush on (which varies rapidly) so I always end up spending the $20 in order to dress up and rub my crotch against others. This year, I'm taking my homeschooled friend Catie because she needs a date in order to come, and I'm a good friend, and this year this girl from local high school Blake is coming, Megan, and I'm working up a little crush (EXTREMELY little mind you) on her, so I figure that ought to make for a fun night. =]

so, since the first post, shit's gone down son

so the day after my first post, me and Girl B hung out, and we ended up holding hands and stuff (nothing beyond just holding) but I was excited out of my mind. The next day her and my best friend started going out. WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! SO, as you can see, I WAS PISSED. I've gotten over it by now, but thats just because I've learned how to deal with this kind of shit. So anyways, I feel led on, Hardcore, and I'm not happy about it. Or rather, I wasn't happy about it, until last night, when I went to my friends sweet sixteen (which was amazing.) At her sweet sixteen I sort of mixed and mingled and wound up with a date to homecoming (who knew?) So I'm in a much better mood considering a couple days ago I had my heart abruptly broken. As for Girl A, I talked it over with her and it's all cool now. So I think everything will work out =]
Much Love
Riley J.

AAAH

So I have a problem. My problem is that I'm romantically involved with a girl, but day by day I'm finding I like someone else more and more. Right now I'm at the point where I feel like she's my soul mate. I still like the girl I'm "with" (which we're not technically going out due to parental issues) but I'm falling head first in LOVE with this other girl. I don't want to hurt anyone, but being with Girl B (names are clearly not being disclosed) just seems so right, and i want it SO BADLY.